O my soul, why be so gloomy and discouraged? Trust in God! I shall again praise him for his wondrous help; he will make me smile again, for he is my God!
Psalm 43:5 Living Bible (TLB)
Just in case those who read my blog think I am a person who awakens joyful every day looking forward with hope to the new mercies that are available through my faith in my Savior, I would like to take this opportunity to share what is really going on. It is God's Word that is alive and active in me and absolutely not my own doing. Each day, God wakes me up and winds me up and leads me straight to His Word. He has been doing this for many years now and even after all this time, it is still necessary to keep me going and He does not fail to do it no matter where I am. If not for the love I am finally convinced is mine through Christ, I would have given up on myself a long time ago. "Life for me ain't been no crystal stair . . ."
When God has a plan, it cannot be stopped, not even by the vessel He chooses to use to fulfill His plan. In recent months, the Holy Spirit has been leading me to write and share with others what God places on my heart as I study His Word. While He encourages me, I am being led to share with whomever may be reading what He reveals to me in His Word and leads me to write. I do not doubt His anointing because it is real and I definitely do not take credit for it. God gets all the glory as He works on and through me. I know firsthand that God will inspire us to do His will even when it is against our own will, and especially when we have surrendered our wills to Him. God will just take over a willing heart.
Life is not easy for me right now. As I grow older in this fallen world I must daily engage in some kind of battle to keep my head up. While aging, I find experiencing various illnesses, lack of financial security, loneliness, hopelessness and helplessness to be the most common tools the enemy uses to try to keep me down. I must literally stretch out my hand to God to pull me up out of the muck and mire every day. I must pray without ceasing and look to my Savior for hope and help for a future. It is then that I realize His grace is sufficient and that He gives that grace every day we live on this planet and that my eternal future is with Him.
While so many seem to be prospering as so many others are struggling through this life, we can always call to mind those who are suffering even more than we are and even those who did not make it through the days we are living through now. In either case, God is in control of it all and I will trust Him to keep performing His good work in me for it is for His glory. God is faithful. His will shall be done. "He will make me smile again, for he is my God."